4/8/22

Good morning happy Melissa's 23rd birthday Friday!

What a great day to be off work! I just put in my instacart order for the dinner supplies so now I don't have to go to town woohoo. I already started washing Trevor's week of dirty dishes so that is on it's way. I feel like I have so much to clean but I really don't I'm just making myself stressed lol. I do need to wash some clothes though so I should get that started soon. 

So yesterday when Scott got home I told him I don't want to watch his mom anymore. I told him I will do it for one more week and then I'm done. They will just have to make other arrangements or figure it out.  I feel bad but I cannot sit there every day it is killing my mental health. I just sat on the couch and cried the last two days. I feel bad because I'm just sitting there waiting for her to die. I don't want to feel like that. His brother can figure out what to do with her when Scott goes to work. I told Scott he needs just tell his brother he has to go to work and he needs to either come over or take responsibility for her. We an only do so much. We both work full time and no one else does. They are all retired. Scattered around a bit but that's not my problem.

So sighhhh I feel so relieved. Also slightly horrible but I'll get over it. The only other time I remember feeling like this is when I babysat for my aunt for a bit. I would take Jessica and baby Melissa into town every day and watch her 2 kids. I think I might have lasted longer at Scott's moms than I did then. It is too much to be gone from home all day in someone else's house (for me anyways).

So I will probably be back in the office a lot more now which honestly is way better than being on that couch. Talking to people who are in the present is so good for your soul. I'm actually kind of excited to get my life back a bit.

Ok now to clean and bake some cupcakes and get ready for our little adventure tomorrow! I'm definitely going to have to get a car wash on the way my poor car is so dirty.