Good morning happy Thursday!
I'm so excited I don't have to get up at 5:30am tomorrow and drive to town. All I did yesterday besides work was have a mini breakdown about how I don't want to do this anymore. Kind of feel like a horrible person but OMG I'm so tired. Plus Aunt Flow is here so you know she makes everything 1000 times worse. I told Scott we should just go home and send his brother a message that we can't do it anymore. You're in charge now you can do it. Probably the only way I'm going to get out of doing this is if I just refuse to show up. That will put a lot of pressure on Scott but IDK what else to do. I feel like a caged animal in this house. I have no authority for anything to make any decisions or plans all I am is a grandma babysitter who isn't getting paid lol.
Tomorrow is Melissa's birthday so I took the day off work so I can be home and clean (since Scott takes Fridays off already he can watch his mom). Trevor makes such a mess during the week. I'm about to lose my shit on that but honestly I don't even have the energy. Last week when I was mowing the yard he was trying to talk me into getting a puppy. I was like good God you can't even wash a dish you aren't getting a puppy. I have enough shit to clean up (literally).
Saturday my mom and I are going on our little trip. I have no idea what I'm going to wear and definitely need to wash some clothes. I guess I'll do that tomorrow. Scott was talking about coming home early with his mom and all I could think was I'm not watching her while you play outside on my day off lol. I need to finish making up the bed we put up for her so she can lay down and possibly spend the night. I have a feeling she'll throw a fit for that.
I'm so excited to go away this weekend I might not ever come back haha.
You so deserved this break away Julie. I hope you have fun and are able to relax. As I have said before, I don't know how you can take this on for long. This isn't fair to you.
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