Friday, June 17, 2016

Weekend is coming!

Well I dragged myself around all three lakes for a walk yesterday. That was nice. First I took the dogs for a short walk. Snookie (the pug) can't walk too far without sounding like she's going to have an asthma attack and now I'm always worried about someone's off leash dog running at Rusty.


After my long walk I got home and my friend told me to come over for sunset so we did that and then moved onto her porch since it was so windy. We had a nice therapy session haha.


So I'm feeling a bit more upbeat today.


Here's a story for you. Someone I know was complaining on Facebook about how their neighbor runs their air conditioner 24/7 but hangs their clothes on the clothes line. She was like, if they'd turn the air off a bit they could afford to put their clothes in the dryer. I was like well you know we are the only country that really uses dryers. Maybe they just like to hang their clothes out on the line. She came back with something about them using an actual clothes line instead of a rope on her fence. Apparently they are super low class for doing this. I just thought that was so funny how people judge other people for something so silly when in other countries hanging your clothes on the line is the norm. I think this qualifies as first world problems eh?


Today is the opening day for Finding Dory. My brave mother is taking the grandchildren to go see it (minus Melissa). I was like are you crazy that's opening day haha. I hope the make it! Melissa is going later in the evening with her boyfriend to see it.


Scott is going to the A's game with his friend tonight so there is a good chance that I will be all by my lonesome for a bit. Hmm what to do with myself??



Thursday, June 16, 2016

Summer Time Slump.

I've been feeling kind of depressed this week.


Working full time sucks big donkey balls. My kids are home being sloths. Scott goes to work later than me now and without the morning routine of getting the kids out the door it just feels all weird. I hit the snooze button and wait for him to get up to get into the bathroom but he just lays there. I'm like I know you need to go poop and that you are going to wait until the moment I get into the shower to do it. Gotta love one bathroom houses.


My oldest is in some kind of life transition and I feel on the edge waiting for her to "need me" but trying not to be annoying or taking over. We all have to find our way somehow right? In the mean time do I make plans to go somewhere?


The middle one is in love for the summer. She spends most of her time with her boyfriend.


The youngest is attached to his computer almost 24/7. I actually woke up the other day at 4:00 (am) and had to tell him to turn it off. No wonder they sleep half the day.


My mom is working on getting guardianship for my cousin's 5 year old. She vents to me.


Scott has a cold sore from being sick and comes home and does this awkward "I can't kiss you hello" dance.


I got up early one day last week and went out did a run/walk. That's the only time I've run in weeks. I can't remember the last time I went to the gym.


I feel LOST.


Where's my way? Someone grab my arm and pull me there. I was telling someone the other day I now understand how some people just get up and leave and don't tell anyone where they are going. Like it's all TOO MUCH and you just need a break where "no one knows your name".


I went outside to take the trash out the other day and paused to pull some weeds out of the bricks and though maybe what's wrong with me is that I haven't done anything I actually like to do lately.  I feel like I don't even have any energy to do anything. Work, dinner, dishes, ok how about some Netflix.