50 FREAKING POUNDS!!

This morning I got up and weighed myself and WOOHOOO PARTY TIME!!

I am down to 154 pounds. Which is FIFTY POUNDS less than I weighed when I started Lose It. I was just looking for the date that I started. March 6th I believe.

Man, go read this post, this was my first one on my new "diet".

I was really pounding the Girl Scout Cookies right before (and up to) when I started it. I had ordered I think SIX BOXES from a girl at work and kept them all in my drawer. I didn't even bring them home to share with the family. Every day I would take out a couple and eat them. Then I would eat a few more, and a few more, until I had ate half a box. Add in drive through breakfast, fast food lunch and sometimes eating out for dinner. It's no wonder I was so heavy.

Me on my birthday 2/8/12 and on 9/2/12

I've been this weight before. The last time was 13 years ago, right after I had Melissa. I was doing Weight
Watchers before I got pregnant with her. I lost about 40 pounds or so and then I got pregnant. I was sick for almost the entire pregnancy (and she's my picky eater, go figure) so after I had her I actually weighed less than I did before I got pregnant. How awesome was that? She was born in April and Jessica started Kindergarten in August. She got out of school around noon and I had just enough time if I drove real fast to get to the meetings at Weight Watchers. Of course, that didn't last long and soon I had quit going. I think my lowest weight was 153. I think I tossed out those old papers but maybe not. I'm going to look for them.

Of course, slowly over time I started gaining weight back. I yo-yo-ed quite a bit back and forth around the 165-170's (I was about 170 when I had Trevor I think) and then eventually it was the 170-180's, than before I knew it I was 200 and fat and miserable again.

This time I am determined to not let myself slip up again. I have to stay focused. I know, who wants to count calories for the rest of your life? I do. I really do. Well at least at this point I do. I know at some point I'll probably be sick of it all but right now I actually enjoy having the control over what I am putting in my body. My input and output. It does take a lot of work but I do not feel deprived.

If I want cake I eat cake. Usually a small piece and make sure I log it. Donuts at work, not so much. They are so frequent I can't allow myself to go there. (Although they've slowed down a lot since my boss is doing Lose It too!) I think it's about knowing your trigger foods. I do not go to Chinese food. Chinese food I'm afraid will be my un-doing! But Sushi? I am okay with that. Like I said, I don't feel deprived. If I want to eat something and I FEEL IT'S WORTH IT, I will eat it.

When I first started tracking what I was eating I didn't exercise at all. I dropped a lot of weight. Eventually I felt like I WANTED to go out and go for a walk at work (a lot of times that was to escape the donut box though!), I WANTED to go ride my bike with Trevor. It was hard at first so we just went a little bit. But before I knew it that little bit wasn't long enough and I just wanted to keep going and going. Eventually I want to get a street bike and maybe work on being good enough join some riding clubs. I need to save up for a bike first though!

I started doing the couch 2 5k running plan. I finished week 6 day 2 today. That was the last day of interval running. From now on it will be all running. I've already downloaded the 5k-10k app. I ran the 5k last weekend and I'm signed up for another one in November.

I joined the gym and started with a trainer. This is a smaller gym. Plus to that? Only $15 a month. It only cost me $100 to sign up. They tried to sell it to me for more but I had seen the price online so of course that is what I paid. They are tricky salesmen, go in informed!! I have since ran out of my free sessions with the trainer and have started paying her. It comes out to about $20 a session. I will pack my lunch for 2-3 days and that is the same amount of money as I would have spent going out to lunch. Or 4 Starbucks. It's your choice what you chose to spend your money on. I've decided I'm worth it.

This journey isn't all easy, some days are really hard! But I feel so much better, so much more in control, and I never spend time crying in the dressing room anymore.

I'm not sure how close I am to being done "losing weight" I have my goal set to 149 (I'm 5'5" tall), that is "normal" according to the BMI chart (yes I know, it's dumb!) I'm thinking that might still be my goal but I'll have to see how I feel when I get there. Other than my stomach area I am happy with how I look. We'll see how it looks in 5-6 more pounds. I think I weighed 145 my senior year of high school (and most likely when I got married but I don't think I owned a scale then). I don't think I will look good much lower than that!