Lover, lover, lover

I was just reading blogs in my google reader (do you use google reader? I think it's awesome!) and came across this blog I read that is a photography blog. They take wedding and engagement pictures. The weddings are usually in some kind of "destination" type place. Always awesome! One of the engagement pictures they have on there has them leaning against a wall, leaning in for a kiss. For some reason it reminded me of when Scott and I were first together. We were at my Grandma's house, probably for some kind of holiday, I'm thinking Thanksgiving or Christmas since it was early on in our relationship. We were messing around like we did in those days. We were always wresting, tickling, hugging and kissing.  My Aunt told me that day, that that was what she missed. I was a little confused and asked her to clairfy. She said, "you know, the making out and having fun". I remember at that time I was totally confused by what she was saying. What do you mean you miss it? If you miss it just do it!

It's taken me about 18 years to totally understand what she meant. I don't know about in your family but here and with most couples I know, after you have been together for that much time you just kind of lose that spark. That "I want to be as close to you as possible feeling". I don't know where exactly we lost it. For me I think it might have been not too long after Jessica was born. He seemed to kind of drift away. I'm not sure what it was but I'm pretty sure he was going through some kind of depression. It was hard. Really hard. I don't think we ever got back to that way we were in the beginning. Sure there are times where we play around a little but NOTHING like it was back then. I doubt it will ever  be back to that place again either. Which makes me sad but I guess that's part of growing up.

What do you think? Do you think that "spark" just fades over time?